Torsos 1, 2 and 3. Collage, 2005.
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Photoshop collage, 2005.
Some people seem to skip happily through life.
But I feel so weighed down. How can I even smile?
Sometimes the negative thoughts, the cloudy mind and the heavy cloud really drive me up the wall.
Sometimes I’d just like to be left alone.
when I was depressed, the air around me felt dark and heavy and meaningless. I would drag myself out of bed.
Some depressives have trouble getting out of bed. I could always do that. It was actually leaving the house that was hard.
Sometimes I would get out of bed, make a cup of tea, sit on the couch and then feel totally unable to do anything else.
Being depressed can affect your appetite. And so can antidepressants.
When I was really depressed and I didn’t want to cook and I didn’t feel like eating, bananas were one of the few things I could eat.
Antidepressants stopped the crying but they also affected my desires.
Some people say they have no regrets
I really envy them
I have always been this useless
Life has ALWAYS been this hard
There is no sunshine
there is no happiness
How can I continue living like this?
The dark cloud will pass
It always does