I sit on a box of demons

June 21, 2005

Just after I started counselling, I felt a lot worse before I started to feel better. One evening, my counsellor was worried that I might hurt myself and she wouldn’t let me go home alone. I called a friend to get me and I spent the night at her house. I wrote about my box of demons the following morning when I awoke at about 5 O’Clock in a strange bed, unable to sleep.
[photopress:box1.jpg,full,pp_image]
I sit on a box of demons. Sometimes I would forget there were demons in the box and I’d think about getting off.
“I’m bored. It’s time to do something new.”
[photopress:box2.jpg,full,pp_image]
Then the demons would get active and try to get out. That would be a tough and upsetting time.
“Oh god, I’m going over the edge.”
[photopress:box3.jpg,full,pp_image]
So I’d have to push down harder on the lid so they couldn’t get out.
Keeping the lid on the box did restrict my ability to do things.
“No I can’t go off having an adventure. I have to keep the lid on this box.”
I got really sick of having to mind the box all the time.
[photopress:box4.jpg,full,pp_image]
Eventually I got off.
Now I have to fight off the demons before they’ll go away.


Dysthymia

March 12, 2005

[photopress:dysthymi.jpg,full,pp_image]
Dysthymia
Ink on paper, 2005.


Low-self-esteem-induced delusions

May 1, 2003

[photopress:delusions.jpg,full,pp_image]